?

Log in

[icon] Jason's hardly used journal
View:Recent Entries.
View:Archive.
View:Friends.
View:Profile.
You're looking at the latest 10 entries.
Missed some entries? Then simply jump back 10 entries

Security:
Time:02:20 am
It's time to give up. Goodbye very soon, Michigan. Was nice while it lasted.
comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment Share

Security:
Subject:Everyone should know.
Time:02:12 am
We lost a legend earlier today. Kurt Vonnegut, the world's best living author in my opinion, died at 84. He had brain damage. I'm seriously pretty upset about this. I have 16 of his books and have read 14, and they are all amazing. Anyone who has never read any of his work, do yourself a favor and go pick up one of his books today. My only hope is that maybe his death will spread more knowledge about him.
comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment Share

Current Music:Soulfly - Bumbklaat
Security:
Subject:Nice and to the point.
Time:01:10 pm
FUCK Valentines Day. I may not have had many girlfriends in my life, but I've had one on most of the important holidays (Christmas, birthday, shit even Easter), but NEVER ONCE have I had someone to spend money on on Valentines Day. FUCK this stupid hallmark, cash-in-on-hopeless-romantics like me holiday.
comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment Share

Security:
Subject:Wow
Time:05:26 pm
Holy crap, Rachael Sargent is going to have a kid in a few months. That is fucking fucked up. Last I knew, I was still waiting on her to tell me whether or not she was going to come to Loren and Kristen's wedding with me, which was, hmm...last May? So yeah, weird how things can change so much in just a year. Seems like I, who had been her best friends for years, would privy to that sort of information, thats a pretty big fucking deal, but I guess not.

Man dude, 26 years old, you really start learning alot of shit that you sort of just took for granted when you were a kid. Like the idea that those people you have in your life when you are 19, 20, or even 21 are going to be there forever. They will not. I pretty much always had the assumption that, even though Rachael got married n shit and I didn't go for fairly obvious reasons, we would still keep in touch and inform each other about big changes in our lives. Like for instance, I thought about calling her when I got into law school, but then I thought, nah, why the fuck should I, since she is the one who is STILL supposed to call me back. And then I hear this through like, a fucking, what, fourth hand source? Crazy shit man.

I am not depressed nor am I pissed off about life in general, its going pretty decently lately, but this was just a pretty big shock I wanted to write about. I'm going to the opera in march, and I might be going with not one but TWO pretty girls. This is good since I've always wanted just one other person to go to the opera with.
comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment Share

Current Music:Decemberists - Grace Cathedral Hill
Security:
Subject:2006 is over, thank you god!
Time:05:15 pm
Alright, just put some decemberists on, so might be settling in for a long one again, I'm not sure yet. First of all, thank the sweet, mighty lord above that the year 2006 is over. I honestly don't think I've had a worse year in my life. The year my parents got divorced and my dad had cancer (which was 1994) is probably still the worst, but 2006 is definately the runner up. Not because there was a great number of terrible things happening all the time, but just a consistent level of shitiness. I always kept thinking, things will be better soon, it'll be ok, and nothing ever changed. To give some examples, how about losing nearly all of my friends, most for reasons I really couldn't explain, they simply just...disappeared and stopped calling. I have two or three people that I see regularly now. I'm counting my cat in that equation. How about three attempts at trying to find a nice girl to talk to, for romance hardly even mattered, just a girl to talk with, to be a good friend, to spend some time with. How about all three of those attempts failing miserably, one ending in a fake phone number, which was certainly my first experience with that. I am so bad that it makes sense to give me a fake phone number, because I am so boring and would be so wretched to spend time with? I didn't think I was that bad. How about it seeming like in this past month of work (december), it seemed like I was getting on everyone's nerves and no one wanted me around. This is WORK, the safe haven, the place where most of my good friends are. Do I complain too much? Have I been too negative that most of them have just given up on me? I don't know, I can't explain it. I could just be being paranoid, because of all the other shitty shit that keeps happening, I just assume they don't like me either, but I think its more than that. One person certainly is tired of me, and shes always been important. I don't know what to do anymore.

So thats last year in one paragraph, although I could write about fifty more on the lost feeling I had most of the year, the general feeling of hopelessness because I am 26 and still have never once had a serious relationship, still don't know what I'm doing with my life, etc. But I'll stop there. Why? Because I think 2007 will be my year. It is time. It is time for Jason to make his place known in the world. I will finally be done at U of M after six years (probably two too many, but I have to say I enjoyed just about every year I spent here, except the last one) and have already made the first few steps in going to law school. Sent the transcripts out yesterday, talked to the professors about letters of recommendation, its definately a go. I didn't do nearly as well as I should have on the LSAT, and there is no excuse whatsoever for that. I watched a decent movie the other day called "Proof" with the lovely gwenyth paltrow and she mentioned to someone who was 26 that he was on the "downward spiral", where basically, alot of your creativity starts slipping away from you and you aren't capable of thinking on the level that you previously were. I would almost be inclined to agree with that. Because I got a 147 on the LSAT, which is the EXACT same score I got on the practice test. Where is the logic in that? Simple knowledge of life as we know it would tell you that people do BETTER after having done a task more than once, not exactly the same. I really felt good about it too when I left the test center, I kept telling everyone I was behind a car that had a 163 in its license plate, and I told them it was a sign. I was confident. I'm not confident very often (which would probably explain the lack of a girlfriend for all these years). And then the test results come back with a 147. All is not lost on that, however, and thats why I think things will look up this year. I can still get 35% of law school paid for with my GPA (a 3.4) and the score combined, and thats better than nothing. So its time to move on past my home of six years, and I will definately miss it, there is no question about that. Walking over to the registrar yesterday I kept thinking wow, this is one of the last times I will do this. It will be a big step, but god knows that I am fucking ready for it, its time to do something else, and hopefully law school will be that something else I need.

All of this bad isn't to say that there hasn't been at least SOME good things from the past year. There were a few memorable nights, though far less than there were in the last great year I had, 2004. Discovering a new bar in Ann Arbor with about 100 beers on tap and 100 bottled beers, called Ashleys, was good. Everytime we went there was memorable, especially the time Nate tried falling asleep at a gas station and still got questioned by a cop. My friendship with Nate is also a positive. Meeting Sheridan is probably the best positive of the year (a girl often is), its just disapointing that she isn't around very often. I've only talked to her a handful of times since I quit WoW (and good riddance to that), but everytime I do I have a smile on my face all day. Thats a nice feeling, and one fewer people can evoke from me anymore. So it is nice to know her. I also can't forget the Decemberists concert, or Ozzfest where Zack fell asleep sitting down on the lawn with heavy metal all around him, or Warped Tour which was the hottest (weatherwise, I'm not all of a sudden going to start throwing around MTV words) experience of all time, but was awesome with Brian and the last time I saw Anna and this other dude who became my concert buddy, who is now interested in Kristin, small fucking world. My relationship with my mom has improved quite a bit too, ever since we sort of had it out on my birthday. I called out for help, that I was unhappy with my life and basically, needed my mother, and she answered, which surprised me. Went to church with her and her husband, who I have also accepted, and went to dinner with them a few times, and things are much better than they have been in years. This year I will work on improving my relationship with my Dad, for selfish reasons and also because he needs a friend now. I may have had a bad year, but my Dad's was far worse. His best friend died at the beginning of December, at the age of 45. So young! I can't imagine Dave, John, Rob, Chad and I all being around 45-46 and then getting the call that one of them had died in their sleep. I wouldn't know what to do. These are four people that I will know for the rest of my life, and to lose one of them so early would be unthinkable. And Jeff was my dads only real friend. My dad even said yesterday "this world holds no joy for me anymore", which scares me a bit, and is also, to me, a cry that he wants his son around. I plan to do my part and I think we will be much closer for it.

So basically what I am trying to tell myself (because this journal has definately become only for myself, no one cares about it anymore, which is why I don't write anymore, why write for an audience when you have none at all?) is that, things can go nowehere but up. I think this is my year. I have three resolutions this year and two will be easy and one will be incredibly difficult (which is to say, the one about giving up fast food), but I want to start working out so that I can possibly build my confidence up and start talking to girls. I have mentioned it before, but to anyone who says "you need to get out and start talking to girls", my response is, I have never had to do that. All the girls I have liked in the past, both Rachels, Janelle, Kristin, have all come to me. I didn't have to do anything to find them, they were just around. Yes, nothing ever came of any of them, but thats not the point. The point is I'm not used to having to go out and find a new girl to be interested in. It is obvious however, since the last girl that I really liked was in February of 2006, and any experience I had with her had ended in about October of 2005 (!), that I need to do something. I tried, and failed three times last year. I have to try more than three times this year. Interesting side note, two of the three girls had the same name. Scary!

I wish there was a book club or something like that I could join. I was watching figure skating most of the day on new years over my grandmas (in between the atrocious michigan football game) and kept thinking "goddammit, I wish I could call someone up and talk to them about this. Or ask them what the grand prix results were". Or when I was about to finish my 15th Kurt Vonnegut book the other day, Hocus Pocus, and when the ending floored me as most of his endings are known to do, if I could have called a girl and talked to her about it. This is why I miss Kelsey. We were never all that close, but she was the smartest person I ever knew. I glanced at her journal today and I am intimidated, because I think to myself "there is no way I could ever write that eloquently (I probably didn't even spell that right, for gods' sake), and shes about five years younger than I am". But maybe we could at least talk a little, so I could read all of these intellectual books that I read that are certainly not for everyone, and I would have someone to discuss it with. I even miss ol' Westhaus, cuz that dude was a smart mutherfucker too. I hope we become friends again if I get into Cooley (which I'd like to think is a sure thing - getting into Cooley that is).

So, after six Decemberists songs, I think thats about all I have for a while, but the point is, I think this is my year. Its time for things to get better. To use the cliched saying, one you hit rock bottom, there is no where to go but up.
comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment Share

Current Music:Snow Patrol - I Could Stay Away Forever
Security:
Subject:An update?! MADNESS!
Time:05:36 am
I'm about to go to sleep but I felt like writing some junk in here for a change. Crazy, I know. First of all, it is good to have a purpose once again. I haven't had one of those in quite a while, over a year now I'd say, and now I've got at least a general idea of the path I want to follow. I'm applying to law school. I'm already signed up for the LSAT on December 2nd, thats the law school entrance exam, and if I do well on that (I'm pretty smart with logic/word/english type stuff, so hopefully I will), I'll be applying to at least four schools, three here in michigan, and one in hawaii, cuz, why the hell not? So thats good. I'm gonna take the practice LSAT this weekend, mail it out and see how I do by the end of november, and probably get me a study book for the LSAT too. So its good to have a goal again.

Secondly, I saw the best concert I have ever seen in my life on tuesday. The number 2 spot on my best bands ever list has changed. It used to be Mars Volta, and I thought it always would be, with White Stripes a very close 3rd, but they have been bumped. The Decemberists are my favorite band around today. Holy crap. If there was ever a genre of music called "novel writer's music" or simply "intelligent people rock", it is this band. The concert was amazing. He got all of the crowd yelling "hear all the bombs, fade away..." a bunch of times, signifying all of our dislike of George Bush. They even had a SKIT for one of their songs, out in the crowd. Colin Meloy is a lyrical genius. Whereas Jack White is a genius musically, mostly with his guitar, Colin Meloy (thats the lead singer) is a master of words. One of their songs, my second favorite probably, is called "Engine Driver", and the chorus is "For am I writer, writer of fictions, I am the heart that you call home. And I've written pages, upon pages, trying to rid you from my bones." Dude, heck yeah. That is EXACTLY how I feel about someone and how I know I will absolutely always feel about her. I want to give her up but its simply no use. And I myself hope to be a writer someday, and she will naturally be a subject of my songs. The purpose of the song is to talk of this guys various lives he has lived, both in and out of his stories, yet he can never forget this one girl. He will always be tortured by his love for her. Simply fantastic. Every single one of their songs tells a story, which means it isn't anything at all like the tripe that passes for music on the radio these days. They have a romantic song called "Red Right Ankle" which must have been about a girl Colin Meloy loved, and I think that I myself am I a little in love with that same girl he is talking about at the end of the song. Thats how great that band is, you actually care about what they have to say, its not just a catchy rhythm. I can't say enough good things about them. So move over Mars Volta, the #2 spot now firmly belongs to the Decemberists.

To anyone who wondered, the Beatles are and always will be #1.

This part of the year, this year that has probably been the worst of my life, has been much better. Thanks in no small part to video games, because this is always the best time of the year for those and this year seems better than most, but also because of movies (I am taking a film class) and the two people around who actually enjoy my company. Thank you Nate and Janelle. Talking to Lin on occassion is always nice as well, and the Sheridan girl I met from playing WoW (pretty much the only good thing to come of wasting five months of this year on that stupid game) is a sweet girl and will hopefully end up as happy as she deserves to be someday. I even considered moving to Seattle for a little while just so I could hang out with her (did I mention shes beautiful as well? How do I have a knack for meeting exclusively beautiful women online? First Micaela, then Lin, and now Sheridan. Its a gift I guess, perhaps to compensate for my utter lack of finding nice, pretty girls in real life?), until I realized that wasn't at all feasible and I don't really want to leave my grandparents here, as, as much as I hate to admit it, they probably only have a few years left. I just try not to think about that anymore.

On to the negative, I honestly I have never had fewer friends in my entire life. Not ever. Not even CLOSE to this few. I hang out with Dave about once a week, maybe twice, Nate goes to movies and concerts with me, and I talk to Janelle through phone and text messages on the weekends, and hang out with her at work. That is IT. Rick never calls me. Kristin never tries to do anything with me. Lauren has long forgotten me. I don't talk to Brian anymore. Travis invites everyone else to parties and doesn't include me. Ashley hates me because of some bullshit, mostly from me being an jealous asshole who runs his mouth too much sometimes, but isn't everyone a jealous asshole sometimes? Also, it'd be nice if she could have understood that and just dealt with me and kept me as a friend, lord knows her current boyfriend has done FAR worse shit to her, MUCH worse than what I simply SAID, and she keeps taking him back. I still miss her sometimes, because she made me, and she made everyone else who was around her, feel special. There aren't many people like that in this world. Lin is one however, its nice to know her. You know who I REALLY miss though? Stephanie and John. I honestly have no clue whatsoever what I did to piss them off so much, but I guess I did it. I wasn't invited to her birthday party like I usually am, and I was really sad when I picked up Guitar Hero 2 the other day, because I knew I would be playing it alone. John and I would rock OUT on the first one and we had some great times. But I know there isn't any point in trying to contact them anymore because I tried on my birthday and never heard anything back at all. I guess they are done with me and I really don't know why. I don't know why MOST people have just written me off, and it was what really made me think "FUCK! I need a fucking PURPOSE! Everyone else has abandoned me, its time to DO SOMETHING!". I guess maybe I should thank them? Because shit, if I'd have went around drifting, having this great life with friends, for a few more years, I could end up being fucking 30 years old before I even started grad school/law school/something else besides undergrad studies.

So, I don't know, blessing in disguise maybe?

Then theres Rachael Sargent. Jesus christ, why even come back into my life if you were only planning on being there for a week or two? I'm still waiting for a response about whether or not she is going with me to Loren and Kristen's wedding, which, oh wait, happened in MUTHERFUCKING JULY. I think about her on every nice day, fucking STILL. I wish I didn't. I STILL thank the big man above every night for having her in my life for those years, because no girl understood me that well and I don't know if I will ever be that close to a girl again. I am close to Janelle, closer to her than I ever would have been with Rachael in some aspects (mainly just that she trusts me more with important shit, shit Rachael would have thought might bother me when we were friends), but Rachael just felt, comfortable around me, we could say or do anything to each other and it didn't matter, you know? Anyone else had that? That stupid fucking girl will always have a piece of my heart, and shes probably gone for good this time. Honestly, I don't think I would want her back again. I don't know if my heart could take it if she just came back with a half-hearted attempt at friendship again and then left me in the dust again a month later. I don't want to become a bitter and cynical old man at my age, I've still got a few years left to have faith in people, don't I? Sometimes I wonder if she took such a big part that I honestly don't know if I'll have what we had with another girl. I hope so, but at 20 fucking 6 years old it doesn't look too goddam likely.

I also miss Kelsey. Kelsey, shit, the two or three people who read this probably don't even know who she was. I miss her because she was so smart. She was a genius. She also loved the decemberists and would have cheered me on as I read the 14 (!) Kurt Vonnegut books I have read since August. She was an intellectual and I simply don't know many of those anymore (Janelle is one, but in different ways than Kelsey was. Kelsey and I were alot alike I think).

Enough negative. Its like Lin's entry said the other day, I'm in a good mood, I don't even mean to BE negative, just some shit I'd like to write out. Its 430 in the morning so I guess I'm going to wrap this up even though I have alot more to say, but I AM truly proud of America for once, something I didn't think I would ever say after the summer Big Mommas House swept the box office and was the #1 movie of that summer. But, the democrats control all aspects of Congress now. Bush's power trip will be curbed. He will not have the ability to kill us all by sending us to war with Iran anymore, the democrats will put the kibosh on that. And, god help us all, hopefully they will try to bring back Habeus Corpus for all of us, and we will have our fucking rights back that Bush so gleefully took away. One can hope. But this is certainly a step in the right direction, as was Borat, the funniest, most offensive, and incredibly anti-bush movie, being #1 in america despite only opening in 850 theaters. Thank CHRIST it beat out pointless drivel like The Santa Clause 3 (3?! FUCK! DID WE EVEN NEED A #1?!?), there is hope for America yet. And Steven Colbert, an absolute genius. This guy is exactly what people meant when they started calling people "the man". He started out kinda nervous on his show, you could tell, but now he is the master of his show, and knows exactly what he is doing. I don't know how he keeps a straight face through some of his stuff (I wonder the same about Sacha Baron Cohen as Borat. He is Colbert's equal in genius...osity.), like the tirade about democrats winning Congress the other day. I was in tears from laughing so hard and here this guy is spouting off some of the most ridiculous shit (that fucking idiots like Bill O'Reilly and Rush Limbaugh probably honestly believe) with a completely straight face. Pure genius.

Thats all I got for now, didn't expect to write this long. If you got through this, I salute you.
comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment Share

Security:
Time:01:28 pm
Today is my birthday.
comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment Share

Current Music:Mars Volta - Viscera Eyes
Security:
Subject:Holy crap! something to update about!
Time:05:13 pm
So last night was pretty fuckin great. It usually is when I end up hanging out with a bunch of people (normally Rick and crew) that I haven't seen in a while, and it certainly was. First of all, the best part of the night, as it often is, was a girl. Ashley. That girl is amazing. The best part of this whole thing is that I think shes finally found happiness with Rick. And thank god, because those two kids deserve each other. Rick just got out of the shitty cesspool of a relationship with Rachel, and Ashley is finally rid of the mutherfucker who should get hit by a bus (his name is Kris, but I prefer my name). So, great that they got together, and those two kids are cute together. Both good lookin kids, both look good together. So thats awesome. And the coolest thing, it shows with both of them. Sure Rick is a fairly insane drunk, but the dude just SEEMS happier than he ever was with stupid ass Rachel (I hope she reads this, then maybe she will STOP FUCKING CALLING ME), and thats good. But Ashley, total turn around for her. Certainly the most happy I have ever seen her, normally she would be much like I am, acts happy and has a good time with everyone, but theres something that isn't quite on the surface that is keeping her from being TRULY happy. That should make sense to most people, and its basically the story of my fuckin life. But thats not there anymore. She was almost giddy all night, to be around her two favorite people, Anna and Rick, and it was just an awesome night. She has always been beautiful on the inside and out and I have never once thought differently except when I had my occasional flashes of douchebagetry, and no one deserves to be happy more than that girl, who is certainly one of the sweetest people I've ever met in my life (up there with Alicia Brown, who I hung out with alot at the wedding, but shes another entry). She actually makes me feel like I make a difference in someones life. I think I've said the same things about her before, but she honestly makes me feel like I matter to someone. That I am special. I think she has done that for a lot of people in her life, its probably why the mutherfucker who should get hit by a bus keeps coming back after a while, he misses the high that she gives him. Because I went home thinking "holy crap, I AM a pretty good person, I help people" because of her. I honestly don't know if any person, girl OR guy, has made me feel like that, and if they have, its been a long fuckin time (Rachael Sargent probably did, but that was the OLD Rachael Sargent, the one that doesn't exist anymore). So in conclusion, thank god Ashley has found happiness, and Rick has found a nice girlfriend too, FINALLY. Oh, and Ashley also had on the hottest outfit that any girl can wear, ever, last night. Wasn't slutty (I'm looking at YOU Janelle if you read this, cuz I'm sure you just thought "Oh, I bet Jason just liked it cuz it was skimpy), just a classy plaid skirt and black shirt, with stockings. Beautiful inside and out, AND has good fashion sense. Thats good work, Rick.

The concert was alright, Fossick has gotten alot better, but I've noticed ALOT of things about myself this year, probably more so this year than in my entire life, and I've noticed my music tastes have started to change. I used to love ALL that nu-metal crap, Dope, Flaw, etc., and I would jam out to it all the time. Now, I'm not really a fan at all. Sure Fossick is ok, I respect that Will can jam out on the guitar and George can yell pretty good. But most other nu-metal type stuff, meh. I pretty much only like the EXTREME type of metal/rock anymore, which is insane heavy metal. We're talkin Unearth, As I Lay Dying (who are religious, if you can believe that shit), Bleeding Through, etc. Other than that, I stick with The Beatles, Mars Volta, The White Stripes, Snow Patrol, I run the gamut all over the place, but nu-metal/rock stuff is not on that list anymore. Interesting.

This summer and year still have sucked for the most part, but its good that occasional glimmers pop up, like last night. I sit around and fucking mope some days when I should just go hang out with good people like Rick, Chad, Nick, Brian, and Ashley, and from now on I will. So hopefully, this is the END of emo Jason. At least for a little while.

And, for gods sake, go download the new Mars Volta cd. Jesus christ is it fucking mind blowing. I think it will probably be their best, surpassing even Deloused in the Comatorium, which is in the top 3 albums of all time.
comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment Share

Security:
Subject:Some stuff
Time:06:47 pm
My computer is fucked, pretty sure its the video card, so I guess I won't be on here for another week or so, or whenever the hell I figure out whats wrong with it. I'm at the computer lab, and have realized two things this past week: One is that, I am a REALLY shallow person. So much so that it took me a couple of YEARS to finally see past someones beauty, and realize they were never a very good friend to me at all. I wasted another couple of years on a girl that was never worth my time. Oh well, fuck it, I'm young right? No, not really. I'm almost 26 years old. I'm probably fucked on the relationship side of things, but you know, who cares, its actually been a nice week and a half, I'm actually thanking God that I FINALLY snapped out of it and realized what I needed to do. I've had some great times with a couple of good friends lately and its been nice, and I'm alot less stressed than I have been most of this year.

The second thing is the soulmate issue. I've never had one. If I did, then there should be a fuckin' book written about them, because there are certainly stipulations to it. If people actually DO find them, then they never stay for the rest of your life. You may have one for a little while, and then you drift apart, and a few years later you only find fragments of your soulmate left. It will never be the same again. Thats how it is for me. Perhaps I had one a long time ago, over five years ago, but she isn't one anymore, and shes not ever going to be again. Oh well. Fuck it.
comments: Leave a comment Share

Current Music:Motion City Soundtrack - Attractive Today
Security:
Subject:New OFFICIAL HOTTEST WOMEN EVER LIST!
Time:06:10 am
Its 6:10 am and it just occured to me that I haven't done a list in a while! Thats pure insanity for me. And no, it being 6am and the sun about to come up, to go to sleep wasn't one of the thoughts in my head. So heres the list!

TOP 10 HOTTEST WOMEN OF ALL TIME - OFFICIAL

1. Scarlett Johannsen
2. Sarah Lancaster (NEW!)
3. Reese Witherspoon (NEW!)
4. Jessica Alba
5. Kristin Kreuk
6. Ziyi Zhang
7. Maria Sharapova
8. Keira Knightley (she's lost a few places, but shes still here!)
9. Elisha Cuthbert
10. Evangeline Lily

Honorable mentions (meaning #'s 11, 12, 13, and so on): Jennifer Garner, Paz Vega, Katie Holmes (bumped off the top 10 because of her Tom Cruise affiliation), Kirsten Dunst (she'd be #11 without a doubt actually), Kate Beckinsale (she'd be #12), Charlize Theron, Melissa George, Paris Hilton (yeah, I went there).

That was fun.
comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment Share

[icon] Jason's hardly used journal
View:Recent Entries.
View:Archive.
View:Friends.
View:Profile.
You're looking at the latest 10 entries.
Missed some entries? Then simply jump back 10 entries